It is the early mornings, when I am the only one awake in the house, when I do my best thinking. Most of this time it means, planning my day, planning my week or just working on what is currently sitting on my desk requiring attention.
Sometimes though, this thinking can head off in a direction I like to call the “future wasteland”. It is when I pre-plan aspects of my life or home before I am even close to ready to be for that stage.
Like buying a pair of jeans one size too small because you will get there, you rush the journey and then suddenly feel like you are failing because you still have so far to go.
Same with working on my house. There are a few rooms left that need a lot of attention. Mostly the living room. I am still sorting out how I want that room to look, to function, and how to decorate it. But the problem is that I go so far into the future of this room, I am not dealing with the today. So I get stuck and go nowhere.
My plan now is to try to keep a list of things going that I can actually do this week. Not next week, or the month later. Not once I get this paint, or that paint. Only things that I know that I have the tools and supplies to get done will receive my attention. They come first.
Then, and only then, will I allow myself to move forward into those ideas I have that require more time, more supplies, more thought than what I have in front of me.
Same with those jeans. No, I did not actually buy a pair of jeans too small. But I have in the past. I still remember the jeans with the golden and black tapestry top (under the waistband and behind the pockets – hey it was the 80′s!) that I never wore. Never. What a waste of my self-esteem they were.
Now, I plan to just deal with my health one day at a time. Today I will eat well. Today I will move more. We have a trip planned for next month that keeps leading me into the “future wasteland” of self doubt. But I won’t go there. Because I am not there yet.
Today I am here. And here is the only place that I can be. So why focus on the before and the after?
Let’s enjoy today.
Have you ever bought something for “someday”? Did “someday” ever come?